A few years back i was shopping with my lovely sis. She had delivered a baby about four months ago and i had gone to hongkong just to see her baby and her. But since it was the first time i had gone to hkg, she was taking me out and showing me around.
That particular day we were browsing around in various shops, i was picking up lots of knick knacks and stuff and my sister called up home to check up on the baby who was with the nanny. She ha done this a nummmmber of times that morning. And used to do it every time we were out. So i asked her, isn't this namny nice? Are you worried she's not taking care properly of the baby? Do you want us to go back immediately?
To this she replied 'no its not that. The thing is when you have a baby and leave the baby with someone, even if its your own mom or mil or a nanny or a sitter, after some time you just begin to miss your baby. And not like miss but terribly miss. So much that your arms want to hold your kiddo and you can smell the baby smell of your lil one.' Back then i just smiled at her and thought to myself, wow what crazy stuff!
Fast forward to last evening. I went to a mall NEXT DOOR like literally next door. Just to get a couple of things. My baby was at home with hubs and mil. After some time my mil called me to just ask me to get a few more things. And i could hear my lil doll fuss a bit in the background. And oh heavens......can't even explain the feeling i had. I just wanted to run out to my child. My pretty lil baby my fairy princess my darling was fussing and i wasn't there!!!!! I took more time at the mall than planned and i could actually feel my sister's words haunt me. I finished off my work and believe me ran through the mall. My stitches started hurting, but i just wanted to see my lil girl and hold her.
I now understand the feeling of missing my baby so much that i just want to hold her, and miss her to the point that i remember her cute baby smell. I wish i could bottle all this up. Love u my miss A. Mama XOXOXOXO
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